Or not, after three months I’m not my own person. Sure I’ve been given a bit more leeway I buy my own groceries, I come home on my own time, the money I have I spend on whatever I want for myself. But you know what after three months I don’t even know who my own person is. Everything I named off is some sort of responsibility that comes with being some form of an adult. But being responsible doesn’t make you your own person. The most irresponsible person in the world can be their own person because they know who they are what they want not giving a care in the world about a bill to pay, or how they should budget appropriately to buy food to last them the month.
Who is my own person? My own person will be revealed when I can ask my parents for advice and not permission, when I do things and not care what another person thinks. My own person will be revealed when I make up my mind and go after what I want. Three months in Saipan and you know what I’m a little better off then I was when it comes to decision making. I might maybe be a little bit more responsible. But I wonder as I write my thoughts on paper and give you liberty to see my aspirations, what will your thoughts be when you see me in person, when you live with me. I don’t want to be a poser so I guess I have to prove this for myself and become someone I am proud of. To do the things I believe will make me happy. And then maybe three years down the road I’ll pick my computer up and tell you who I am and how happy I am for making decisions for me.
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