Follow Up

I was reading some old blogs and  I was reading a few that were about new transitions. Transitions to becoming a new me, my relationship with my boyfriend, spiritual. So here's an update 6 months after leaving Saipan.

A New Me.
Theres not much new to me. I have different current goals, like becoming Certified as a Dental Assistant. But my whole mindset is still a bit faulty. I guess I haven't put all my effort into it which is usually the case with me. But I am trying to change that. Funny I just started that today. For example with my studying. I woke up earlier and realized I could have a much more productive day. I finished my household chores and then I sat down opened my book took out a pen and paper and truly studied for three hours straight. This is the plan for my saturday and Sunday. (this is because I have a certification test on Monday for infection control) I know, this sounds like Super Cramming but I want to take the skills I used to cram and spread out weekly one hour a day. Then when the exam comes I'll be much more prepared. If I can do this stick to this idea then I can say a few months or so from now, I truly have changed. Because I get what I want because I went and got it. I would love to say that honestly

My Spirituality.
Alright that has defiantly sunk since I've come home. The biggest reason is because of what I mentioned above, not giving my all, but I believe where I am also plays a small part in it to. In saipan Jesus was the focus of everyone I spent time with. Here Jesus is a focus but not the biggest one, also here I don't hang out with people I stay home by myself. Being its all on me, my relationship has plummeted. I know if I want to get where I was I have to do something figuring out what is the problem and doing it when I've made up my mind is another issue. Writing this is making me feel so entitled and lazy. So Priya as of right now see what needs to be done here's hoping I'll have a better follow up in about 6 months or better yet maybe you'll notice a change as I blog later on.

My Boyfriend.
I was very worried that as we were each finding out selves we would grow apart. Well we are still together and happy but I would say that fear still came true. Were still tight as can be given the distance of miles but as time goes by we notice differences. What I'm glad about those difference hasn't broken us even if it came pretty darn close. Instead were working with it and accepting it. Being that were so stretched being Im here in Bermuda and he's in the states these rocks being thrown at our only connection is making it stronger not weaker. I think this is one aspect of my life that will fluctuate up and down but will still remain a constant in my life.

There's my follow up My next one will be three for three positive I promise. I have to be more productive in all areas of my life. Its the best way to feel good and satisfied. And I simply cant wait.