A Whole New Me

For those that know me I would think that they would agree that on a whole I’m not a bad person. I don’t steal, I don’t tell serious lies, I won’t try to steal my best friend’s boyfriend, I haven’t killed anyone as of yet so yah, I’m an overall good gal. But since I’ve come to Saipan I’ve learned that I have a long way to become the person I believe God wants me to be.

There’s this guy name Carlos he preaches frequently at my church here and I always feel when he speaks he hits a tender spot in my life. Last week his message was on the health message, main focus food and to be even more specific meat. He spoke on how meat is really unhealthy and not good for the body. He backed it up with the bible and EGW and just simple facts. So because of this sermon, added with my mindset of an overall change, I am deciding that meat should be cut out of my diet. This is difficult because I love COW, everything else I can give up fairly easily but me and cow we good friends in a twisted way. But If I want to become the woman I aspire to be this is an important step. I need to take the best care of my body that I can. So what I decided to do is not to buy any meat to bring into my house and only eat meat on occasions that I go out to eat.  This saddens me slightly cause I was going to go grocery shopping soon and was looking forward to turkey bacon. I know this will be hard but by time I come home I hope it’s something I will overcome.

Outside of sermons I have my personal devotion. Early I mentioned how Proverbs 31:10-31 is the guide line I have chosen for my life and one verse speaks of a woman keeping her home clean and not being idle. So this might take a while, but I decided I would first tackle keeping my room clean. If I can do this I know I’ll be one step closer to becoming the woman I want to be. It’s funny I have talked about marriage but honestly how do I expect t to keep a home if I can’t keep my room in order. When I master this ill add more.

Of course you already know that I’ve been working on becoming more spiritually mature. I believe it’s coming along fine. So far I’ve enjoyed everything I have read. Now I’m reading Daniel which is different from everything else I have read because everything else was on how to make me a better woman. But this to I find hard to keep because other things seem more appealing at the time I choose to read my bible. Also I have started giving bible studies on Saturday afternoons. Its nerve racking and I pray I can really help and not lead people astray but it’s a new experience and so far also enjoyable.

I wish to change to become a better woman, physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I am trying to have a more responsible mindset. I have a loooooong way to go but I know I have the support of my God my Family and my Friends. So when I come home I hope the people who have known me for my whole life will see a difference and that when my environment changes from Saipan to whatever else I don’t but that I keep on this path to becoming that virtuous woman.